Misconception of "weee.. ayoooooooooo.. "

Yesterday, while waiting for a tv program. I was bored. I was tired to read (Read lang gud ang tawag.. sus kung kinsa tong nakasabot.. you know na.. I just don't want it to be obvious). So I read my old posts in this blog. There were certain posts that I found silly. Well, I realized that reading my old posts is a measure on how mature my mind is. Honestly, I never thought that I'll think or do such things I expressed in those posts.

Did you remember this post? I posted that last May 12 2009, entited weee.. ayoooooooooo... It's almost three years, eh? This post really struck me while rereading this last night. Okay let's talk about the middle part. (Let's just call it part... I cannot call it a paragraphs because nothing's really indented in that post)

"It seems that it's too early in thinking about my college but see time is too fast and I'm already in the last year of my high school.
I am already sure about my course. It's computer engineering pero yung ate ko.. nagsabi na sana magchange yung mind ko.. sana pipili pa ako ng mas bonggang course. Gusto sana niyang maging DOCTOR or lawyer ako.
Paano, I really want to enter their industry.. If magiging doctor ako, it seems that I will not be happy. I appreciate the doctors who heal.. pero kahit anong encouragement ng mga relatives ko.. parang ayaw ko talaga. It isn't my passion. I just studied well in advanced biology for the sake of my grades.
Kung law.. ayoko rin.. hahayzt..
Gusto ko talaga yung course na pinagpasyahan ko. Alam ko na mahirap yun kasi involved talaga siya sa math.. eh bahala na.. I'll take all the risks. Eh kasi yun ang passion ko. Baka makaya ko gamit ng pagsisikap.
At saka kapag nakatapos na ako at saka may bongga na akong trabaho."

Char, tagalog pa ang drama.. Hahahah.. If you're a follower of my blog, what can you say about what I am now in the present? Do you have any clues behind the portions that were bold and red. Okay, if you don't know what I'm into right now.. Okay.. I said I will never be a doctor but now I'm playing on a game with aspiring doctors. I think I haven't posted an entry about my changed decision (Nakalimot na ko.. I can't recall because I have 143 posts so far.. I haven't finished rereading).

Let me give a chance to explain everything in this entry. I decided to go into my sister's suggestion because i felt a vibe on taking an engineering course... that may be bad. It's about my weakness in mathematics. There came to a thought about taking risk. If I'll take risks, what if a bad effect might come.. I might not get that "bonggang trabaho".

On being a doctor, I know my sister has a purpose why she suggested me that. I know she trusted my skills and I can do it.

Honestly I decided to go to that because I was really uncertain. Feel nako.. murag makaya ra man tingali ni nako dah, someday I'll learn to love it..

At first I chose BS Biology as an option. Then a mother of a friend of mine suggested BS Medical Technology at Velez College. She said that's the best pre-medical course. I was really clueless about that course. Regardless of it, I took it.

The start of first year in Velez College wasn't really great for me. I haven't got a good stigma in studying because I thought I was unhappy for choosing that option. But I passed all the subjects..

Second semester of First year made me start to love my course especially when I met some friends who made me go through it. Finally, I flew to the Dean's List and it made me more inspired.

Second Year gave me a stronger stigma. Of course the highlight was when I got my anaphy grade. I know I haven't burst my whole effort on that subject but I still got great remarks. In front of my admission slip.. For the first time I vowed to be a doctor heartily.

By this time I'm on my way to the hunger games (you know that already).. I think it's my time to give my all because all of the subjects are majors. I hope I will receive the strongest stigma in that time. Promise that's the time I'll give my all.. -- I'll give my all for me to learn ... then to be a great medical technologist ...then to be a great doctor.. I'll try harder though my effort might not be enough to stand on the effing Dean's List (I still really want to stay. Okay it's up on my fortune and it's up to the Lord if he will let me stay there..). as long as I supply my brain with knowledge.

Okay.. these are all my drama for now.. Tan-aw sa ko ug Dong Yi..