Goodbye 2011

It's only about 5 hours away to 2012. I am really really thankful to God for giving me another year. I'm looking forward for more awesome things to come on 2012.

I would really like to express my gratitude to my family. They played the largest role in my 2011. I will really sacrifice everything just for them. Mommy, I admit that sometimes I get annoyed that you treated me like a baby. But mommy, I really love it. I am indeed blessed to have a mom like you. I do promise that I will pay you back in all your sacrifices to me someday. Someday, I will be the one to make you happy. Ate Georgia, I really miss you especially during holidays. I miss the times when we've made all the noises in this house during Christmas and New Year. Ate, someday I'll prove to you that all your sacrifices are worth. All my endeavors in school are all for you. Kuya Harley, thank you for taking care of my ate Georgia, I'm wishing you all the best. Daddy, I just want to let you know that I still love you. Honestly, I get excited in seeing you every month. I love it when you share your chikas to me even in a few minutes. I also love it when you give me some treat everytime we see each other. I love the way you brag about me to others. I know everything that happened is all for good. I'm sorry that I wasn't a good daughter of yours. Daddy, please stay healthy and happy.

To the C.R.I.F.T.s.. thank you so much for the strongest friendship ever from 2006 til eternity. I really love it when we hear mass together. Christine Joy, wishing you all the best in your duty. Thank you for your encouraging text messages. Roch, I hope you will touch the lives of your patients as what you did to me. Be a great nurse. Ayiin, Be a great nurse too. As a friend of yours I am so proud of your achievements! Thank you for the times we've spent together in school especially in the library. I really really love them. Yang2x, stay sweet and have a good rest. Do not spend your time too much in studying.

To my BSMT friends, thank you so much for showing that college is really fun despite of the stresses we had. I know we can really really do it. We will be the best Medtechs and Doctors in the world. Bert, thank you so much for being a great partner in chemistry. You are really awesome.. bright, gwapo, dato.. (i-add sa facebook?). Kuya Abby... Thank you for the words of wisdom. Those really helped me a lot to be a great student. To Someone.. I forgave you and I'm also asking for forgiveness. I'm sorry for I was too mean to you. To Someone2.. Thank you for the times we spent at the library. Thank you for listening to me during the times I miss my loved ones. You are really talented and I really love it. We may not see each other all the time and you may forget me but I'll never really forget you. Janelle, thank you so much for the friendship. Thank you for listening to me every end of the class. Thank you for being my exhaust fan. I really love our chikas and the times we commute together.

LORD..Thank you so much for bringing me here. Thank you for letting me bring a twist to others' lives. Lord, I may not yet know what's my purpose but paving my way to discover them. Everything is in your will Lord and I'll always do my best to be a better person.

(This is my last post for 2011... Those people mentioned summarized everything for 2011. What's yours? Stay tuned for the next posts on 2012)

10 Realizations of 2011

1. It is not really easy to forget the "must-forget" events in the past. There are some instances that I could remember them.

2. I should not jump directly to conclusions. It is better to think and analyze before I'll burst out some words from my mouth.

(eg. I said, I WILL NOT PROCRASTINATE... still, after I said that statement, I still did it and did it all over and over again..

3. There are people that I thought as significant in the first look but they're having an important role in my life right now.

4. Forgiveness is a refreshing feeling. It serves as a catalyst for a friendship to be stronger than ever.

5. Adrenaline rush is not just a physiological event in my body for emergencies. Well, it happens on random times. It is not just portrayed by my epinephrine but also DETERMINATION.

6. Change cannot really be resisted. It is really sad if a person changes from good to worse.

7. There is really a right time for everything. I cannot dictate my future. It's in the will of God.

8. There are many ways to express my faith. I should not limit myself on Sundays.I can do it in any instance of my life.

9. Distance doesn't really matter for me. Though I'm faraway from my other loved ones, in my heart, they are still near me.

10. Someday, I will change the world and make it better and remember my name..

Multiply Account

Lo and behold!

Just to let you know that my multiply account is still alive... yes.. If you are interested to my past life, you can browse there. Though only few users are active, I still reactivated it for some purposes. I'm really really thankful to my multiply account because that was my back-up when I used friendster before. Now, the true friendster is really gone. From social networking site, it turned into games site just to give way to facebook. I cannot access to my friendster photos anymore and now I'm using my laptop BUT I can still access them because of Multiply.

I think multiply will not be like friendster I guess. Now, multiply focuses on business but my photos are still there hahaha. Starting today, I'll update it with my new photos. What if facebook might be gone someday. I'm sorry that I might not be like before nga naning magbutang ug captions. As you know, I was still in high school and there may be times that I'll be carefree in the virtual world. Busy jud ang college hahaha, Christmas break pa gani, naa pay statistics nga gi-atiman :)) The important thing is that I updated it..

If you want to keep in touch to my facebook, you can email me personally :) You can access through my twitter (Just refer to the left side of my blog... Twitter updates) and follow me.. :))

Soy Siento

Soy Siento..

I am sorry..

I noticed in my archives that 2011 has the LEAST number of posts. I'm just reminding you that this blog is still alive and kicking. I am just sorry because I've been busy in my college life. It doesn't mean just because I didn't updated this as much as the previous years, this blog is already inactive.

This blog is one of my life's precious possessions. Mark my word, when I'll be professional someday, this blog will still be alive. If ate georgia has her lgeorgia.com, then I have my blog. If Irene Carmel Rodriguez has her tumblr (well, she just made a new blogspot recently), then I have my blog. If Janelle Navarro (a college friend of mine) has her sketchpad (she made it as her diary), then I have my blog.

I want that in the future, my children will read this blog and they'll have a clue on what I am today. Ergo, I'll try my best to update this.

Yeah right, I'll tell you in advance, I might post more rarely next year because I'll be on my real battlefield.

Revelation of Some Dreams

Okay... I only have 2 days and 3 nights left before school starts. Oh, I'm terrified... No, Franz, you shouldn't be terrified! You've been complaining about your boredom in your sembreak. Uh, I'm sorry.. I'm talking to myself already, aren't I? Life has no contentment. Even though you already attained something that you wanted, you are still searching for something more. Oh, that strikes you most, Franz.

Hey dude, I'm telling you. This blog is still alive and kicking though blogger isn't in demand as facebook. Though this isn't too much updated, this precious blog of mine gives an overview of what's going on with my fabulous life. Oh, if my sister has gorgeous life, well, mine is fabulous. Fabulous, because the it has the first letter as my name. Okay fabulous..

Because of boredom, I thought about bringing back some habits that I've done before. I just browsed at symbianize and I felt myself like a newbie though I've been a member of it since 2008. I signed in at my yahoo messenger account and I found out that my YM application is outdated already. It isn't as "noisy" as before anymore. I remembered that I get annoyed by those group messages that should be addressed to one person. Also, the status message to express something. Something that couldn't be expressed verbally. How about now? Who cares, there's facebook, twitter and etc. I also have my skype account which is faster. Oh, poor Yahoo Messenger.

Lastly, My destination is facebook. I browsed my inbox. I'm so sad that the messages sent by someone was.. lost. It almost ruined my day. Who is that someone? Hahaha, that's not good to mention. Then I decided to browse the profile of some of my friends and click like to other's posts. Then I strolled through the profile of my sister. I took a look at her old photos before she got married. Oh, I miss her hair before it was dyed. Then I felt sorta "bitin" then I opened her multiply account then I decided to open her blog. Then I found out that there were new posts. A new post of hers stunned me a lot especially in this first paragraph.

"My parents always say it's never wrong to dream. What is wrong is to limit myself by being scared to dream big dreams"

You know, my parents, i mean, our parents also told me that. I understand why my mom told me to do these and that, avoid these and that because she wants the best for me.

My dreams are big. I don't belong to a family line of doctors but I dream to be a prestigious doctor someday.

Doctor- You may think that it's a miracle that I've said that. You may say, "Wow, Franz! Finally, you followed your sister's suggestion". You may be updated to my recent posts. Haven't I said that I must not enter a medical course?" Yeah, you're right. That time, uh.. uh.. I was still in the state of being.. undefined. Kidding!.. Honestly, I decided to switch in a different path because I realized that my ambition before isn't really for me. Many signs proved me that. I decided to take Medical Technology, for a try. It's just because, I excelled in biology when I was in high school. "Franz, take Medtech na lang kaha.. maybe that's for you. Maybe, you'll be suited for that. And there it goes, I took it up despite of many objections by others. I made a stand even though others say that I wouldn't do it and I would fall some day. You know what happened, I've been loving my course though it's tough. I love what I'm doing in the laboratory. I sense the spirit of determination even though I'm suffering on sleepless nights. I admire the medical practitioners that I've been seeing at CVGH then I dreamed to be one of them. My anaphy grade was awesome. Then there made my stand- I WILL BE A DOCTOR.

Then back about my sister's blog. I was impressed that she then realized her dreams like going to London, France and Italy. Wew, it's like the settings of the stories she read came true. How about me? Yes, I'm clumsy and my hands are most of the time shaky. Those are the reason why others doubt that I will be a doctor. Oh I'm sorry. I will never let those things to be the limitation for the realization of my dreams. My mom said that I was granted something that most others don't have. I know I can do it. I believe that there's nothing impossible as long as I have faith and determination. Someday, those fabulous dreams will come true. I should not make my parents and my sister disappointed. I know they are making lots of sacrifices in order to attain my dream. I swear to you. Someday, I'll post in this blog as an MD. Those dreams will really come true.

Aside of being an MD, I'm also dreaming to be a teacher. I will not just be a doctor but I will produce doctors as well. I also dream to go to the Big Ben, to stroll around the Disneyland, and to travel around the world. Also, I'll meet the Flynn Rider of my life who is been waiting somewhere for me.

Lord, everything's up to you. I follow your will.

Okay, I'm sleepy already.. sorry... Wait for the next post..

Hey wazzup? How's your loooong weekend?

Hey wazzup? How's your loooong weekend?

Answer here

PRESSURE- the word that I DISLIKE!

Tomorrow is the start of another school year- new set of teachers, new set of subjects, and new set of friends.

Last week, I was supposed to be excited. I was excited about who my new classmates would be, anatomy and physiology which is such an exciting subject and of course biochemistry which is my favorite branch of chemistry.

Sadly, I received a devastating news from a friend of mine. I will not just go deeper to that. This blog is open for everyone and the people involved might read this. I don't want to make another issue. Basta, this has something to do with broken plans and of course the word PRESSURE.

Well, I planned something after I departed 2nd semester. It became successful during summer. I enjoyed a lot last summer. I love my new set of classmates and I had fun with them. I learned the word CONTENTMENT further. That's what I see in them. Summer class was really happy.

Aside from being happy, I felt NO PRESSURE. Well, it's different from the pressure with regards to academics, huh? I get used to it since I graduated from a science high school. The truth is, I really don't want that somebody will treat me as ALMIGHTY. Yes, I have trait that is unique from others. Yes, I can learn fast and I'm grateful to that. I really appreciate compliments I received from others. But, I hope that people will treat me as an ordinary teenager or classmate. I do not like that people will expect me as "super-genius". As we all know, nobody is perfect. I have limitations. Believe it or not, they can attain what I have if they have PERSEVERANCE and FAITH. You know, I feel sad if some will envy me. I'll be more sad if others will grab MY grades and compute them WITHOUT my consent just for the sake of being too grade conscious. It's more depressing if people will pull me down because of what I have.

Honestly, I'm sad that I'm born in the world of competition. Yes, I competed in honor roll since I was in elementary. Grabbing the 3rd honorable mention and the special award in high school is so tough. I didn't even expect that I'll garner those awards. I'm so thankful that God gave me an understanding mom. She's not like the parents of other honor students that pressures their children to rank higher huh. My mom understands my limitations. It doesn't mean nga bya-an lang ko basta magkina-unsa ko. She even encourages me to do my best because she knows my capacity. That's what I really love in her.

From know, being on the top of the batch is not in my choice anymore. As long as I'm on the dean's list, I'm contented with it. If God will give me a chance to go with flying colors, okay I'll go with it. If I'll reach to the point in which subjects will be getting super-hard and attaining line of 1 would be like a shooting star, okay, as long as I should get the passing grade.

Basta pressure, sorry I really hate that. Don't ever dare to pressure me.. I know what to do.. :)

PS.. This semester, my plan is broken. Promise, I'll be with myself and I'll stay humble.

It's just because... I'm bored

After 3 weeks of the so-called heaven and stress-free days…

I’m bored. I might beat a call-center agent in enduring my eyes in front of the computer. I miss being busy and getting sleepy while doing tasks. I’ve been gluing my eyes to the alluring pictures of Kim Hyun Joong oppa to satisfy my boredom. Worse thing would come if mapul-an na ko hahaha..

If there will be classes, I’ll stress myself out once again and yearn for vacation. If vacation sad, hahay, I’ll get bored and look forward for classes. Oh my, what kind of life do I have? Hahahaha… It’s fabulous and cute, isn’t it?

just like this guy..

BSMT1 just passed

3 days from now, I’ll drive into the second chapter of my college life. I will be a freshman no more. Maybe, I’ll penetrate through harder subjects of my course.
As I depart summer, let me share to you what I’ve attained on being a BSMT1. I didn’t just wade through chemistry stuffs, principles of Newton, body systems, etc. Those are indeed principles of life.

I ascertained that good grades cannot be attained without force. It is just the same case as Isaac Newton’s law of interaction- “In every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction”. As I cleaned my room last week, I glanced over my first sem testpapers, answer sheets and blue book. I just laughed upon getting over those stuffs because my marks weren’t really good. Honestly, I wasn’t really doing well in my studies that semester. I didn’t study for I thought that everything will be easy. I just relied on my “stock-knowledge”. There’s a question that came to my mind- What if I’ve done better? I might be a pro in academics like what I’ve achieved in my high school.

Another thing is regarding other people. I’ve met different people with unique and extraordinary character traits I’ve never had before. I wrecked upon knowing that grade-conscious persons still exist in college. I confronted a person (I will not just mention the name) whose traits that cannot be understand. He treated me as a “wonder-woman” who has the ability to vanish his dilemmas in just one click. Oh my, I don’t really have that super power. I even wish to have that. I even have some mess that I haven’t fixed by myself.

I also met people who are great. There were teachers who inspired me to study more. There’s also a person who became my idol and became my virtual brother. I learned not just academic techniques from him but also moral thoughts. I remember a notable quote from him – “True friends are like black pearls, they are hard to find”. Yes, that’s really true.

Honestly, it’s really hard to adjust as I entered college. First of all, there are changes that were hard to accept just like going out to school just by myself. It was really different when I was in high school wherein I had been with CRIFTs (Tinjoy, Roch, Ayiin, Yang2x). There were even moments wherein I think about them. It’s really different. I know some just befriended me in college for a purpose. Twas then I woke up at an instance in knowing my purpose in going to college. I’m going to college for it’s my stepping stone for my dreams. I must work hard to have a brighter future then. I must not forget my purpose in taking up medical technology.

I’m thankful that during my first year, I knew myself more. I knew who I am. Honestly, I am not yet quite sure about my decision for my future. Kung sa math pa, I’m not yet done with my solution and I haven’t arrived to the final answer. There will be a time that I’ll push through that. I HOPE God will give me guidance..

FIGHTING :]

Eight Commandments for Successful People

1.Make time to think it is the source of power.

2. Make time to play- it is the key to freedom and relaxation.

3. Make time to read- it is the gateway to knowledge.

4. Make time to worship- it washes the dust of earth from your eyes.

5. Make time to help- no other happiness match this.

6. Make time to live if you don't, it will fade away.

7. Make time to laugh and pray, these are tow things that lighten life's load.

8. Make time to be close with God- He is the source of everything.

Long Distance by Bruno Mars

I just downloaded this song yet I've been playing this for several times since yesterday. I don't know what is in this song wherein I am not in love after all. I just love its tune and its words.

There's only so many songs
That I can sing to pass the time
And I'm running out of things to do
To get you off my mind
Ooohh,no

All i have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face every day

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me
It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days
While I'm away
You know right now I can't be home
But I'm coming home soon,coming home soon

All i have is this picture in a frame

Summer 2011

My vacation just started last Wednesday. It's such a great feeling of luxury. After sleepless nights, well here I am now- surfing the net and worry-free sleeping. I really love this. I never felt this essence of freedom for a very long time.

I realized that too much sleeping makes me feel bad. Since Wednesday, I sleep exceeding 8-hours. Grabeh, makalabad sa ulo.

I must taste this moment for after how many weeks, I will go to school again, grab my books and back to my fuzzy lifestyle. Actually, I am excited for the summer class. Goodbye depressing inorganic chemistry because organic chem is on your way. That was my favorite subject in high school. Yes, that’s one way I thank my alma mater for we already took it up. I hope that it’s just the same in college.

I promise to myself that I’ll be back with the old me that I erased for several years. Yes, I bet I’ll be free to do that on summer because I’ll do something. I wish I won’t regret it but I’ve been thinking about it for months. I wish my friends will understand me. I’ll be back with the old Franz that others have known before but in angelic way. What I mean is that, I’ll be more serious towards my studies.

The “sem-break” is the time to charge my energy this summer. I will exert another forceful momentum. That’s more than twice in 2^nd semester. I promise.

Goodbye, hell week

“This too shall come to pass”
After a week of hell, a moment of heaven comes. Week of hell? You may think it as an exaggeration. I really mean it! Yes, I almost lost the word SLEEPING in my vocabulary. I spent my nights sticking my eyes to my books or notes, reciting those formulas by myself just to put them on my head and pressing the buttons of my calculators like there is no tomorrow .
I hope all those endeavors are worth. Indeed I was able to answer the exam yet I don’t know if those answers are correct. I’m hoping to get a higher mark as possible. If not, that’s okay. I should accept it. I still can’t resist procrastination in college. If I weren’t procrastinating, I must have not been cramming on those nights. If I just studied in advance, it would just take me moments to refresh. I’ll try my very best to avoid it. It might be my hindrance when I reach the higher level.
Here comes the finals. That will comprise 2/3 of my grades in most of my subjects. For me, that is the real battle. I really mean it. I will work two times harder. My goal is to get a higher grade than last semester. I must not just end it in words. I must make it come into reality.
Today, I just broke away from those school stuffs. Maybe I will start tomorrow for finals. I will try to resist procrastination. Aja, FRANZ!

Midterm Examinations

Hey, why am I blogging right now? I'm supposed to be studying huh? Tomorrow is my midterm examination in Physics. Physics.. well it that subject is indeed my nightmare :(.

I supposed to post this as a status on facebook but some of my teachers are my friends there. They might react regarding my status.

Unlike other subjects, I can really answer the test if I study overnight. In Physics, it is not an assurance that you can have higher marks or even pass if you study overnight. Physics require studying. I already understand the concept yet I can't manage myself to solve those mind-cracking physics problems.

Just like the previous exam in Physics lec, yes, I studied hard the night before. When I received my testpaper- Damn, this isn't the one I studied.

Among the basic sciences, Physics is my weakness. Because of that subject, I was discouraged to take an engineering course. But I am taking a medical course, why is it that I was under a teacher who engages engineering. I have a pity on him for my classmates disrespects him. That's why I was just trying to adapt on his way of teaching.

I hope I will have the luck tomorrow. I will just continue to study these freaky stuffs. I belief on a saying : "Everything shall come to pass". This stupidity will finish then and this summer, the subjects will be getting relevant to our course.

Aja.. COMPUTERS OFF.