PRESSURE- the word that I DISLIKE!

Tomorrow is the start of another school year- new set of teachers, new set of subjects, and new set of friends.

Last week, I was supposed to be excited. I was excited about who my new classmates would be, anatomy and physiology which is such an exciting subject and of course biochemistry which is my favorite branch of chemistry.

Sadly, I received a devastating news from a friend of mine. I will not just go deeper to that. This blog is open for everyone and the people involved might read this. I don't want to make another issue. Basta, this has something to do with broken plans and of course the word PRESSURE.

Well, I planned something after I departed 2nd semester. It became successful during summer. I enjoyed a lot last summer. I love my new set of classmates and I had fun with them. I learned the word CONTENTMENT further. That's what I see in them. Summer class was really happy.

Aside from being happy, I felt NO PRESSURE. Well, it's different from the pressure with regards to academics, huh? I get used to it since I graduated from a science high school. The truth is, I really don't want that somebody will treat me as ALMIGHTY. Yes, I have trait that is unique from others. Yes, I can learn fast and I'm grateful to that. I really appreciate compliments I received from others. But, I hope that people will treat me as an ordinary teenager or classmate. I do not like that people will expect me as "super-genius". As we all know, nobody is perfect. I have limitations. Believe it or not, they can attain what I have if they have PERSEVERANCE and FAITH. You know, I feel sad if some will envy me. I'll be more sad if others will grab MY grades and compute them WITHOUT my consent just for the sake of being too grade conscious. It's more depressing if people will pull me down because of what I have.

Honestly, I'm sad that I'm born in the world of competition. Yes, I competed in honor roll since I was in elementary. Grabbing the 3rd honorable mention and the special award in high school is so tough. I didn't even expect that I'll garner those awards. I'm so thankful that God gave me an understanding mom. She's not like the parents of other honor students that pressures their children to rank higher huh. My mom understands my limitations. It doesn't mean nga bya-an lang ko basta magkina-unsa ko. She even encourages me to do my best because she knows my capacity. That's what I really love in her.

From know, being on the top of the batch is not in my choice anymore. As long as I'm on the dean's list, I'm contented with it. If God will give me a chance to go with flying colors, okay I'll go with it. If I'll reach to the point in which subjects will be getting super-hard and attaining line of 1 would be like a shooting star, okay, as long as I should get the passing grade.

Basta pressure, sorry I really hate that. Don't ever dare to pressure me.. I know what to do.. :)

PS.. This semester, my plan is broken. Promise, I'll be with myself and I'll stay humble.

It's just because... I'm bored

After 3 weeks of the so-called heaven and stress-free days…

I’m bored. I might beat a call-center agent in enduring my eyes in front of the computer. I miss being busy and getting sleepy while doing tasks. I’ve been gluing my eyes to the alluring pictures of Kim Hyun Joong oppa to satisfy my boredom. Worse thing would come if mapul-an na ko hahaha..

If there will be classes, I’ll stress myself out once again and yearn for vacation. If vacation sad, hahay, I’ll get bored and look forward for classes. Oh my, what kind of life do I have? Hahahaha… It’s fabulous and cute, isn’t it?

just like this guy..

BSMT1 just passed

3 days from now, I’ll drive into the second chapter of my college life. I will be a freshman no more. Maybe, I’ll penetrate through harder subjects of my course.
As I depart summer, let me share to you what I’ve attained on being a BSMT1. I didn’t just wade through chemistry stuffs, principles of Newton, body systems, etc. Those are indeed principles of life.

I ascertained that good grades cannot be attained without force. It is just the same case as Isaac Newton’s law of interaction- “In every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction”. As I cleaned my room last week, I glanced over my first sem testpapers, answer sheets and blue book. I just laughed upon getting over those stuffs because my marks weren’t really good. Honestly, I wasn’t really doing well in my studies that semester. I didn’t study for I thought that everything will be easy. I just relied on my “stock-knowledge”. There’s a question that came to my mind- What if I’ve done better? I might be a pro in academics like what I’ve achieved in my high school.

Another thing is regarding other people. I’ve met different people with unique and extraordinary character traits I’ve never had before. I wrecked upon knowing that grade-conscious persons still exist in college. I confronted a person (I will not just mention the name) whose traits that cannot be understand. He treated me as a “wonder-woman” who has the ability to vanish his dilemmas in just one click. Oh my, I don’t really have that super power. I even wish to have that. I even have some mess that I haven’t fixed by myself.

I also met people who are great. There were teachers who inspired me to study more. There’s also a person who became my idol and became my virtual brother. I learned not just academic techniques from him but also moral thoughts. I remember a notable quote from him – “True friends are like black pearls, they are hard to find”. Yes, that’s really true.

Honestly, it’s really hard to adjust as I entered college. First of all, there are changes that were hard to accept just like going out to school just by myself. It was really different when I was in high school wherein I had been with CRIFTs (Tinjoy, Roch, Ayiin, Yang2x). There were even moments wherein I think about them. It’s really different. I know some just befriended me in college for a purpose. Twas then I woke up at an instance in knowing my purpose in going to college. I’m going to college for it’s my stepping stone for my dreams. I must work hard to have a brighter future then. I must not forget my purpose in taking up medical technology.

I’m thankful that during my first year, I knew myself more. I knew who I am. Honestly, I am not yet quite sure about my decision for my future. Kung sa math pa, I’m not yet done with my solution and I haven’t arrived to the final answer. There will be a time that I’ll push through that. I HOPE God will give me guidance..

FIGHTING :]

Eight Commandments for Successful People

1.Make time to think it is the source of power.

2. Make time to play- it is the key to freedom and relaxation.

3. Make time to read- it is the gateway to knowledge.

4. Make time to worship- it washes the dust of earth from your eyes.

5. Make time to help- no other happiness match this.

6. Make time to live if you don't, it will fade away.

7. Make time to laugh and pray, these are tow things that lighten life's load.

8. Make time to be close with God- He is the source of everything.

Long Distance by Bruno Mars

I just downloaded this song yet I've been playing this for several times since yesterday. I don't know what is in this song wherein I am not in love after all. I just love its tune and its words.

There's only so many songs
That I can sing to pass the time
And I'm running out of things to do
To get you off my mind
Ooohh,no

All i have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face every day

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me
It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days
While I'm away
You know right now I can't be home
But I'm coming home soon,coming home soon

All i have is this picture in a frame

Summer 2011

My vacation just started last Wednesday. It's such a great feeling of luxury. After sleepless nights, well here I am now- surfing the net and worry-free sleeping. I really love this. I never felt this essence of freedom for a very long time.

I realized that too much sleeping makes me feel bad. Since Wednesday, I sleep exceeding 8-hours. Grabeh, makalabad sa ulo.

I must taste this moment for after how many weeks, I will go to school again, grab my books and back to my fuzzy lifestyle. Actually, I am excited for the summer class. Goodbye depressing inorganic chemistry because organic chem is on your way. That was my favorite subject in high school. Yes, that’s one way I thank my alma mater for we already took it up. I hope that it’s just the same in college.

I promise to myself that I’ll be back with the old me that I erased for several years. Yes, I bet I’ll be free to do that on summer because I’ll do something. I wish I won’t regret it but I’ve been thinking about it for months. I wish my friends will understand me. I’ll be back with the old Franz that others have known before but in angelic way. What I mean is that, I’ll be more serious towards my studies.

The “sem-break” is the time to charge my energy this summer. I will exert another forceful momentum. That’s more than twice in 2^nd semester. I promise.

Goodbye, hell week

“This too shall come to pass”
After a week of hell, a moment of heaven comes. Week of hell? You may think it as an exaggeration. I really mean it! Yes, I almost lost the word SLEEPING in my vocabulary. I spent my nights sticking my eyes to my books or notes, reciting those formulas by myself just to put them on my head and pressing the buttons of my calculators like there is no tomorrow .
I hope all those endeavors are worth. Indeed I was able to answer the exam yet I don’t know if those answers are correct. I’m hoping to get a higher mark as possible. If not, that’s okay. I should accept it. I still can’t resist procrastination in college. If I weren’t procrastinating, I must have not been cramming on those nights. If I just studied in advance, it would just take me moments to refresh. I’ll try my very best to avoid it. It might be my hindrance when I reach the higher level.
Here comes the finals. That will comprise 2/3 of my grades in most of my subjects. For me, that is the real battle. I really mean it. I will work two times harder. My goal is to get a higher grade than last semester. I must not just end it in words. I must make it come into reality.
Today, I just broke away from those school stuffs. Maybe I will start tomorrow for finals. I will try to resist procrastination. Aja, FRANZ!