Life sucks without internet

Unlike the usual times, I’m browsing the internet lately because of the recent construction of our home. I’m so overprotective of my netbook for I don’t want it to contaminate with dusts. I’m open for new TV shows and movies.

I thought the internet connection would be dead forever. Last night, my netbook wasn’t able to connect with the internet. It came to my mind that maybe, it’s the same illness as last December wherein I wasn’t able to browse the net for almost a month and it’s kinda miserable. Then I loathe for it to happen.

I maneuvered to call the Smart Company to fix it. But my mother refused to do so for it would be another financial damage. She even decided to cut it off if it’s hopeless. Besides, on class days, I’ll be staying on the boarding house and there’s a Wifi connection there.

I felt the sense of abhorrence. For me, 11 days is too long. I must value those days for I might not have time to browse the World Wide Web because of obligations and accomplishments at school. Also, I just met new friends at formspring.me and I want to chat with them again. Then the MJ Fam on Tumblr, I’ll surely miss them. Don’t tell me I’ll move to the boarding house abruptly just because of the internet. If I’ll do that, surely it’s like I’m killing my mother with boredom. There’s no television and I love the scenes in “Langit sa Piling Mo” in the afternoon then I want to watch the pilot episode of "Pilyang Kerubin for I find it interesting.I don’t want to miss “Eat Bulaga” for my last week of summer.

Acceptance- that’s what I did last night. Though it was teary, I don’t have any other choice but to be patient and to count the days on the calendar before June 15. Well MJ soothed my mind again while watching moonwalker. At least I forgot misery while watching his moves and cuteness.

This is such a great day. Thanks for my cousin who has a great expertise in electronics and he fixed it. The connection’s wire was just disrupted due to the construction of our wall. Here I am on the world of internet.

Guitar

I got used to be in the world of duskiness and haste. My eyes remained closed in an open space. I shed all deplumes and conceived my inflictions. There came to a point that I never opened my soul to any hope at all. I believe that I’ll be in this lieu forever.

Suddenly I took heed at the strum of the guitar. My ears were well-pleased upon receiving that beautiful voice. Instead of penetrating my brain, it went directly to my heart. Its frets move as if it whimpers my soul with extreme happiness I ever needed. The music it made opened a bright light that illuminates the empty space and made my eyes open. Its melody tossed of the inflictions which made me bring into darkness. The harmony changed my mind from ambiguity to clarity. The tempo brought the hue that completes my contentment. Then the tone reconstructed my heart from pieces.

Then the guitar brought me to another game. I learned how to fall in love. My heart yearned for the music it made. I followed it wherever it is. I felt so perfect upon hearing its music. Time has passed my soul eventually opened the hope that I wished for.

Yet, the guitar turned into green. I already knew that its music isn’t for me. I felt another pain upon my unsuccessful expectations. I forced to close my ears for it tolerates my disappointment. I was even urged to ruin it for everything to stop. Still I realized that I cannot live without it. Though it’s not intended for me, I still followed the music. I didn’t even care at all as long as it’s always with me.

Time has passed its strum sounded lower and lower until it disappeared. The guitar departed without any prior knowledge of my feelings. Now, I remember what it looks like but I didn’t remember any piece of its sound anymore. I wondered if I could hear the same way again. Will that remarkable instrument be in my arms again? It has been twelve-month since the first time it came to my life. I must be grateful for its change it brought to me. I don’t know what destiny brings for us but still I’m happy I have such an instrument that brings the true resemblance in me.

The "far-reaching" thing (Chapter 1 and 2 1/2)

This was my project in English on my senior year. I exerted a lot of effort to excrete my imagination. I spent almost whole two days for these. I even emptied a ballpen’s ink because of this for the sake of passing on the next day. Unfortunately, everything was worthless for it was uncollected (Our English teacher set the deadline early and maybe she forgot this hahaha).. I’ll just post this on my blog for safety reasons- I might lost the original write-up. I don’t force you to read this but if you’re interested, okay go.

CHAPTER 1

The town’s breath of wind caressed Nadine after ten years of setting herself in United States. She felt the loss of her motherland no more.

Nadine Carol Smith had been bounded by almost everything-allure, amity and affluence yet love seemed to be her far-reaching paragon. She never acquired the perfect attention of her parents she needed nor had contented relationships. She urged to engage Jason Rodriguez, a son of a family friend though her heart didn’t want so.

Together with her friends, Julie and Melissa, she went to the Redemptorist Church- the beholder of her past. She’d been there in her childhood time.

As she knelt on a pew, she eavesdropped to a melancholic piano music from afar. Her soul was casting around on where it came from as her heart was bewildered. She then caught a sight of a man. He who appeared in majesty, elegance and grace made the music she admired.

Melissa stood up and went where the man was, Nadine and Julia followed then. “Hey your music’s great!” Melissa said as the man stopped playing the piano. “I am Melissa Labra, can we be friends?”

She wondered why the man gave an innocent gasp at Nadine. “I’m James Marco Rodriguez, you can call me Jimmy”

Jimmy.. Jimmy.. Nadine’s heart trembled upon hearing that name

“Hey, these are my friends, Nadine and Julia” Melissa introduced as Jimmy and Nadine stared blankly at each other.

“Nice meeting you girls! I’m sorry and I still have an appointment. I need to go.” Jimmy said hurriedly as he stood up and closed the piano.

“Bye Jimmy!” Melissa responded but Nadine unstopped his gaze upon him.

CHAPTER 2

Nadine reminisced on a crystalline night and made a sudden flashback. She already knew that Jimmy is an icon of her past.

This is how the story goes…

Nineteen years ago, Nadine was diagnosed with dengue at an old hospital as so did Jimmy with an unknown disease. That’s how they met. They became playmates and the little boy accompanied her at a moment without the presence of her mother. They started a so-called puppy love however everything was just like a snap. When Nadine discharged upon her recovery, they parted and moved to United States with her family.

It’s amazing that destiny bought them together after such a long time. It seems it’s too late. She’s vowed to marry Jason.

Furious and irascible, Mrs. Smith moved towards Nadine’s room.

“Why didn’t you answer Jason’s calls?” she asked angrily

“Mom I never care about him” Nadine answered without any hesitation.

“Whether you like it or not, you have no right to break your engagement. Don’t bring a shame to our family.” Mrs. Smith exclaimed.

“Mom, it seemed you discomfit my life, you ruled it and…” she stopped as her mother gave her the strongest slap.

Mom, am I your daughter or drudge? You never loved me though as your child” Nadine cried and ran away..

*** to be continued**

June 2010

I slept so late to welcome my month which is June. Obviously, it’s my favorite month. I’ll be turning 17 (seventeen) on the twenty-eighth day. Honestly, it’s not disappointing for I’m getting older. I must be thankful for God gave me another year to face challenges, to celebrate, to be happy and to touch other’s lives. Yesterday, my mother said that God really has a purpose to be born so I must be grateful. I should make every part of my life important. Due to my destiny to live, I must make my own history and stand out.

Aside from being my birth month, the mid-month of the year has other significance for me.

1. June 1- Well, this reminds me of something. It’s been a year that I entered my high school’s senior year and somebody gave me a hint to go to other path. Well that path may wake me up from a very long sleep or give me a light from my “blindness”.

2. June 15- Another chapter will begin. From being a senior, I’ll be a freshman again. I’m half-excited and half-nervous. I’ll be entering a new environment and new group of people.

3. June 25- It’s been a year that my idol, Michael Jackson was gone. Last year, though it’s 3 days before my birthday, I was crying because of that. I bear that I’m extremely addicted to him. I must be grateful for he’s now happy in heaven. Maybe he’s now moonwalking there without any pain.

4. June 28- Yes, it’s my birthday but it would have been a year for something. I entered the path and I woke up and I recovered my sight (not literally). I’m grateful for whoever behind it.

I conclude that there may be a purpose of everything. “Everything happens on a purpose” as what my MAPEH teacher said. God has a reason to

let someone live and take someone away. Whatever it is, I must cherish His reason.

They Got Nothing On You Baby

I went with my mom at Gtabs (Gaisano Tabunok) this morning for grocery. I was fascinated on the song being played that time and I don’t even know the title. The part “They got nothing but you” photocopied on my mind. I didn’t handle it and with the help of Sun Unlimited text, I group messaged to my buddies about that song and I asked them its title (if somebody knows). Good that someone replied to it and she said it’s “Nothing on You”. I heard the lyrics incorrectly, it’s not BUT but ON. Then I asked her the singer behind it. She said he sounds like B.O.B. Then I remembered that a friend of mine introduced to me that song. He just sent me the Youtube URL and told me to listen to it for it’s a beautiful song. Well I just ignored it due to slow internet connection that time. I just saw the title which has somewhat B.O.B.

It’s Nothin’ On You by B.O.B. ft Bruno Mars. The song pleases my ears.

Nothin’ On You by B.O.B. ft Bruno Mars

beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby
they might say hi and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry about what they say
cause they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby

not not not nothin' on you babe
not not nothin' on you
i know you feel where i'm coming from
regardless of the things in my past that i've done
most of it really was for the hell of the fun
on the carousel so around i spun (spun)
with no directions just tryna get some (some)
tryna chase skirts, living in the summer sun (sun)
this is how i lost more than i had ever won
and honestly i ended up with none

there's no much nonsense
it's on my conscience
i'm thinking baby i should get it out
and i don't wanna sound redundant
but i was wondering if there was something that you wanna know
(that you wanna know)
but never mind that we should let it go (we should let it go)
cause we don't wanna be a t.v episode (t.v episode)
and all the bad thoughts just let them go (go, go, go, go)

beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby
nothing on you baby
they might say hi and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry about what they say
cause they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby

not not not nothin' on you babe
not not nothin' on you

hands down there will never be another one
i been around and i never seen another one
look at your style I ain't really got nothin' on
and you wild when you ain't got nothing on
baby you the whole package plus you pay your taxes
and you keep it real while them other stay plastic
you're my wonder women call me mr. fantastic
stop.. now think about it

i've been to london, i've been to paris
even way out there in tokyo
back home down in georgia to new orleans
but you always steal the show (steal the show)
and just like that girl you got me froze (got me froze)
like a nintendo 64 (64)
if you never knew well now you know (know, know, know, know)

beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby
they might say hi and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry about what they say
cause they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby

not not not nothin' on you babe
not not nothin' on you

everywhere i go i'm always hearing your name (name, name)
and no matter where i'm at girl you make me wanna sang (sang,sang)
whether a bus or a plane or a car or a train
no other girls on my brain and you the one to blame

beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby
they might say hi and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry about what they say
cause they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby

not not not nothin' on you babe
not not nothin' on you
yeah and that's just how we do it
and i'ma let this ride
B O B and bruno mars!!

Facebook's Notification Overload

The world wide web seems to be the other phase of the world. It seems most people's lives revolve around it.Social-networking sites are one of it's boasts. I know that it's the means of communicating to other people at another ends of the world. Friendster and facebook are the famous examples of it.

Well, I still have my facebook. It's been a year that I left friendster and transferred to facebook. I find the "new" social-networking site more enjoying than the older one.. (Well, facebook isn't new. I think it just have the same age with friendster. I can say that it's "newly-discovered") Facebook application instills me will the oldie is getting boring.I remembered that I had my farmville and friends-for-sale (ffs) account with my batchmates until we got fed up.Aside from keeping track with my old and new friends (or making friends),it's all-in-one for it has a chat feature. Instead of making IM's in Yahoo messenger (YM) just to resist on useless group messages (or what we call GM) that freezes my PC, I'm using facebook.

Notification is the commonly-used lingo on facebook.From the word itself, it makes you notify on facebook alerts. I remembered that it was found at the bottom part of the page near the chat bar. Since facebook updated it's "look", it transfered at the top of the page near the messages.

Another jargon is tag. A characteristic in which facebook becomes impressive due to tagging feature wherein you'll be prompted that you have your OWN photo at your friends' album instead of browsing their profile one- by-one. Well, the friendster team challenged and had a new-look at mid-2009 and copied facebook's tagging feature (well, it still becoming fluff little by little). It's not just on photos, you may be tagged to an important note, announcement, video and etc. You'll increase your notifications as long as you're tagged plus the comments at the one you are tagged at.

For me, notification and tag are significant for they would keep me in track easily. Deplorably, those features are misused nowadays especially to my friends. Well it's okay that I'm tagged at a photo without the presence of my face as long as it's important. It's fine if I'm tagged at a quote or a beautiful scene. It's alright to comment on those.But comments feature is abused. Well let's define comment. Comment is the act of giving feedback. It seems that COMMENT turned into CHAT. I noticed nowadays that users are now putting comments which aren't either related to the photo they're tagged at. It seems that one talks about something to another. Besides, the other ones that are tagged have flooding notifications just like "whoever commented on a photo of YOU". Others may be prompted to open that link yet they just wasted a time for what they've read is just a conversation and it's useless for them. Plus another minus is that it seems that the important notification is covered. It's just like what happened to me the other day. I haven't noticed the comments of my fellow staffers in my notes at MNSHS Sentebale wall that's so crucial for they were covered by the useless "a photo of you" notifications. It seems I need to be back to the primitive. I really need to visit the profile page now and then just like friendster. Well there are chat, message and wall feature that eventually became worthless. They may converse there instead of flooding notifications.

I admit that I committed that mistake in the past. I just realize the awkwardness it brings to my fellow friends just like me. Even me myself felt unease at it. I believe that nobody is perfect and I'm hopeful that everybody is open for a change. I wish that the social-networking site's feature (not just facebook and friendster) wouldn't be misapplied. I believe that we have those accounts for enjoyment and useful purposes but we must think for the welfare of all. We must assure that what we do must not feel the others uncomfortable on what we did. Fellow friends sorry sa mga natamaan... :)

Yearbook Galore

It's been 6 months since I was appointed as a yearbook staffer. At first, I thought that I wouldn't be accepted for I was part of the past school-paper controversy. God is really good that my dream still come true.

Being a staffer isn't so much easy. Supposed to be, I have nothing to worry about this summer and have my usual routine (computer, kaon, tulog) yet there are still accomplishments I need to do. Plus, the yearbook meetings! I still kept on going to MNSHS though I'm already a graduate.

There are still advantages in being a staffer. Though I've been going to school, I wasted less money due to free lunch. We already had fund intended for food during meetings. Then I observed, ever since the first dinner, our food is always related to chicken. First it's been fried crispy chicken.. Nowadays it's lechon manok (ngee manok man gihapon :p) Also, at least I'll say that my vacation isn't as boring as last year. Though I'm busy in my assigned pages, I still enjoy in designing them. Well, my creative side is useful.

The truth is, I'm really really excited for the yearbook to be published. Yes!... We, staffers sacrificed a lot for that. We are delighted to see the product of our efforts.